overwhelming feelings for jake..

today is the 22nd week of my pregnancy & jake is kicking like crazy! this morning our cat, bo, was sleeping on me with his front paws across my belly. it was really cute. all of a sudden jake kicked really hard & it happened to be right in the spot where bo was laying. bo's eyes popped open & he immediately looked down at my belly to try & figure out what happened. it was so funny & really neat that he felt it. i was on the phone with eddy when this all took place & he thought it was cool too. after that i knew i should probably get up & get something to eat so i did. jake get's really impatient if i drag my feet at feeding times. lol. this lets me know ahead of time that he is going to be sure & let me know when he's hungry once he is born. feeling his kicks & movements are just amazing. it is hard to believe that there is a living person inside of me that me & my husband created. it is so touching. throughout my life i guess i just figured that i wouldn't understand the idea of being a mother until i was much older, but having jake in our lives has proven to me that it doesn't matter how old or mature you are, having something as wonderful as a baby changes everything in life. most 21 years olds aren't planning baby showers, they are off at college attending parties & all kinds of stupid things that really aren't important. jake has really opened my eyes to this & knowing that i have him to look forward to only makes the lifestyles of most people my age seem even more senseless. i couldn't imagine life without him in it now. it changes how you look & precieve everything in life in a good way. no longer do you think about the shoe sale going on at belk's, you are now concerned with things like the 20% off coupon you recieve on huggies diapers with every purchase of frosted flakes cereal. haha! i loved my life before we found out about jake, no question, but for some reason with him in ours lives it seems like now we have a purpose for being here. that purpose being to raise our son in a christian home & teach him how to be a great person. he is our life now. it has also brought us closer as a couple. we have always been super close, but now we share a new kind of bond. one that is much stronger & deeper. i don't believe anything is more precious than a child. it is a wonderful thing to experience with someone whom you love so much. i told eddy the day we found out i was pregnant that i couldn't even fathom being able to love someone as much or even more than i love him, but now we know. it is obvious that jake is going to be the biggest blessing that we could ever ask for & that there is no way that we couldn't love him more than anything in this world. eddy & i will always love each other unconditionally, but we are both certain that nothing can outweigh the love we will share for our son. this is certain even now. he is our everything & we wouldn't know what to do without him.